April 9th was day 100! I am beyond excited and extremely proud. This is something I have not done in my entire adult life. Honestly, when I think of college, post college, the years where everyone got married, had babies, celebrated baptisms and first birthdays, I always celebrated with alcohol. There is this event, that event, turning 40 and so on. It was probably fair to say there were more times in my adult life where I drank 100 days in a row instead of abstaining.
From January 1 to April 9th, there have been hard days, not so hard days and days where it was a piece of cake.
The original goal was to get to the end of April. I wanted to get through 4 whole months per the recommendation of the book “Can I Keep Drinking?” by Cyndi Turner. Once the pandemic hit and we went on lock down, I said to myself, “Maybe I just get to 100 days and I will see how I feel.” On April 9th, I chose again not to drink. On day 101, I made the same choice. Friends asked if I would drink and I honestly thought about it. A beer sounded amazing. So did a margarita. But the thing was, I did not want to drink alone. (That’s kind of what got me here in the beginning.) If I chose to enjoy a beverage, I want to be with people in celebration. Not alone. That would only set me up for failure. Thank goodness for the clarity to understand this point.
Maybe when the lock down is over and there is a chance to celebrate with friends, I will do my best to enjoy in moderation. For now, I know it absolutely won’t serve me well as I am confined to my home for the most part. I can’t run since I am injured and while I love to walk and do strength training, my runs served as my “get the demons out” protocol. Connecting with people over social media, quality family time, diving into my business and meditation are what keep me going these days.
I came across the quote this week: “You’ll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine.” – John C. Maxwell
At the end of last year, I knew things had to change. One thing that I did most days and had regrets about was my drinking. My life has certainly changed for the better as a result of quitting.
While I don’t know if I will try moderation out in the coming months, here is what I do know. There has been 100 days of:
Good decisions, no hangovers, no regrets, good sleep, good energy, clear thinking, a growth mindset, a LOT of time for reading (16 books in 13 weeks), improved relationships, clarity, more time, patience and so much more! I know for certain that I want to experience more of what I have now.
I am grateful for the support of you and this community. Here is to some more sobriety! A special shout out to my friend who brought this over to celebrate the other day! Thanks for the care package. I loved the Nanny State and all the yummy treats!