Good Sunday morning to you all. How is everyone doing with the quarantine? How are you feeling? What has been the most challenging? Are you celebrating victories? I would love to hear what you are going through.
I know we are all managing jobs shifting, homeschooling, a sense of uneasiness without know how long all of this will go on. It’s been quite a week, that I know for sure.
My kids and I decided to come to my in-laws beach house on Sunday in effort to make social distancing a little easier. If we were at home, I know I would struggle to not bend the rules and would figure a way to see people if only for a second. My kids would want to see their friends and it would have been a constant struggle (and an overload of mom guilt) to repeatedly say no. Being far away is making that easier to manage.
With regards to drinking, I am happy I said no drinking for 4 months at the beginning of the year. Generally at the beach, day drinking would begin around 11am and last well into the evening. The good thing is, I am really productive with work and am not sloppy by supper. I am present for the kids (for the most part, computer time and reading have probably taken the place of booze). It is comforting to know that during this time, when I would have used alcohol to cope and feel not so bogged down, I am making different choices. So everyday feels like some small victory for that reason. All that said, please know that I would love to chug a beer and have an entire bottle of wine at dinner. It won’t happen, but I need you to know that I miss it.
Now, the next thing to tackle is the ice cream addiction. Ha ha! Ice cream consumption has dramatically increased in the last week. I need to get a hold of that and will do so beginning today. (Since I finished the ice cream last night and won’t allow us to buy anymore.) I mean, the struggle will be real with no mint chocolate chip.
All that aside, here is the thing I want to share the most. I miss the hell out of some hugs. Within a week, I see friends and clients daily. (It is no secret I love social interaction). With each interaction is a big old hug. Right now, I miss that more than anything. My son is going through the phase where he doesn’t particularly want to hug mom. That’s fine, I know it’s normal and it won’t last forever. My husband, as wonderful as he is, is not a hugger. He will make me tea and bring it to me, make dinner and do things around the house I don’t want to do and I appreciate all of those things. He makes the quality family time happen, for which I am truly grateful. He just isn’t a hugger or someone who generally wants to cuddle. I crave affection. My sweet Addi is a hugger. She will at random come up to me and just tell me she loves me and hug the shit out of me. Thank you, Addison. She will help me get through this time. Thank goodness for my girl!
Hugs from my friends fill my cup up. They keep me going and mean the world. I will never take hugs for granted. I may even hold on tighter for longer at the end of this physical distancing. One of my sweetest peeps sent this to me this am. I loved it and may just have to print and hang on the fridge.
Wherever you are, I am sending you a big ass virtual hug. I can’t wait to hug it out whenever this pandemic wraps up.
Love and hugs.